Wow haven't written in here in aaaaaaages (myspace controlling me xD)

umm hmm yes well quite alot happening haha extremely confusing too!

haha basically I'm going out with one guy at the moment and we were pretty sturdy in the beginning but then ever since the one month we were having problems, so now we're back "on" for the bagillionth time but I'm still really confused as to if I want to be in this any more.... right now we're trying to start a fresh but I still feel uneasy about everything, I keep freaking out that I might do something I regret and I keep doubting my loyalty and shit like that =[ and just everything keeps fucking with me....

I really don't want to hurt him any more because I'm always the one that ends up breaking up with him but then after awhile we always end up getting back together anyway! I know this may sound harsh but I want to see other people, see what its like being with someone else.

I guess him saying he loves me alot and saying he never wants to lose me is making me feel uncomfortable too :\

I'll just stop here because I'm not really thinking straight and I'll probably end up just typing gibberish xD so yeah some comments on what to do could be helpful

Thanks guys.